Feeling Melancholy.
so I will listen to Melancholy Hill by the Gorillaz.
The week has been Interesting, my emotions are all over the place like a menopausal woman. I've been revisited by the insomnia fairy again and am now suffering a complex!
I did my Tarot Cards yesterday, not looking good if I'm honest.
Went for a run earlier on, I had no energy and was running really slow.
I feel like there a dead weight on my shoulder at the moment and I know that its not going anywhere for a while yet. I hate feeling lacklustre and all limp life. All I'm doing in comfort eating, laying in bed and reading or staying at my grandmas (not including updating this).
The only highlight in my life at the moment is Mitchell, who I've not seen in donkeys. I don't see J.C enough to fill him in, and were not friends who really discuss each others feelings. My parents are too busy with their own lives to really notice that much change in me. Mums got her own problems at the moment, but my Dad is just being Mr Sport again and getting annoyed with anything that interupts it. Training comes first, Family and life is somewhere lost on him.
I'm looking out of the window as I write this, the sky is a clear blue, with some white and gray clouds obscurring it slightly, but still adding to the view. I can see the tops of trees from behinds houses swaying slightly from the breeze and I feel actually serene. I wake up to this most mornings and yet I still find something to complain about. The Human Nature makes me sick sometimes. Were never gratefull for what we have. Something has to make it better, perhaps because were insecure with where our lives our taking us.
Just a thought!
Toodle Pip
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